What God Uses…

Appointments have come and gone and we have met a lot of medical professionals in the last few weeks- including a Neuro-ophthalmologist! Our daughter has officially withdrawn from college on “medical leave” in light of her on-going symptoms (dizziness/blurred vision). Few answers have been given. We actually know more about what’s NOT going on than what IS. MRI readings show there is no growth (tumor) on the pituitary gland, that might put pressure on her optic nerve, however hormones being secreted remain high and the pituitary gland is slightly enlarged.

It’s hard to know what to do next. We have been presented with options from more testing (a spinal tap!), to regimented physical therapy for dizziness. Oh well, it’s only $$$- right?? HELP. The eyesight remains a mystery. I keep asking God, “what’s the plan here?” An Endocrinologist seems to follow as next on the list of Doctors. There is a wait… of course.

I see new resolve in Sarah’s eyes, a deeper understanding that doctors are at the mercy of test results and experience. That too many times there is no quick fix. That there are many, many sick people in our world waiting for appointments and answers just like we are. That sometimes we HAVE to stop doing regular life to take care of our health! That God can and will use EVERYTHING for a purpose, we may just have to wait and see “for what.”

“We humans keep brainstorming options and plans, but GOD’s purpose prevails.” Proverbs 21

“For we are God’s masterpiece. Created anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us to do, long ago.”  Ephesians 2:10 

Lead on, LORD.

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Sarah & Elizabeth

 

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What if?…

Today is a day we have both dreaded and waited for. Today those particular tests the neurologist requested will finally be run. It seems like it’s taken forever. It has only been a week. To a college student however, days mean grades, grades equal GPA, GPA stands for staying in school… graduation… future jobs. This weekend was an emotional rollercoaster of “what ifs.”

We don’t know anything more. We are still waiting and speculating. We do know that nothing further can happen without these views of our daughter’s brain. We’ve been forewarned that the scans are complicated and may take about a week to review. Our appointment to actually hear results is NEXT Tuesday. Sigh. Meanwhile, so many questions swirl. Her college is advising a “medical emergency withdrawal.” Sarah would rather have her fingernails extracted. It’s hard to watch her grapple with all of this – after she’s worked so hard.

Her medicine makes her sleepy, curbing the nausea and for that I am thankful. Hopefully she will sleep through the long, long test in the tight tube today. Hopefully someone will see something helpful and get the ball rolling a tad faster. Hopefully there will clear answers as to her vision loss and ideas to correct. Hope is what I hold to.

My Hope is found in God and His faithfulness. As always, He sees what I don’t. He has an end goal in mind. I know without a doubt that He is working behind the scenes. He is answering my prayers (always) for my children to follow hard after Him. He cares 1st and foremost for their hearts… and I’m more than ok with that!

Let Your will be done, LORD. We trust You with all the What ifs.

ForGlorySake! -Anna

 

img_4753“Yes indeed -God is my salvation. I trust, I won’t be afraid. GOD -yes GOD! -is my strength and song, best of all, my salvation!” Isaiah 12:2 MSG

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The Part I Don’t Like

How I remember days like these… unpleasant. It’s the part I hate, where you wait and wait. God must have great leverage in changing us when we have to wait. 

Today was full of calling… and waiting to be called back. Or just waiting on the phone for something to be found, only to find the “something” was never sent. Trying to get these scans (MRIs) scheduled for our daughter has been an exhausting experience. And once they are complete? You guessed it… more waiting for appointments to hear results.

Meanwhile, the days are passing, college classes are being missed and tuition feels like it’s running down a drain somewhere. Ahh. Questions remain as to her job, apartment, bills, roommate.

As my stomach twists I remember -God loves us, He has a plan, He has a purpose and ALL I really need to do is trust. 

Oh God of all hospitals, schedules and bills help me to find rest in the midst. You are never befuddled and Your way is always sure. I’m so thankful to be on Your side. I wait only on You.

ForGlorySake! -Anna

  

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The Steady One

“Jesus Christ remains the same yesterday, today and forever.” Hebrews 13:8

How I needed these words of life to glow from my phone today, staring at me like a challange to remember -God is here. 

Friday, after a long and winding tale of months of symptoms, our oldest daughter finally got in to see an ENT (ear, nose, throat doctor) for answers. Almost immediately she was diagnosed with “migraine related vertigo.” I’d never heard of painless migraines before. Blood pressure meds are used to control the associated chronic dizziness. An MRI was ordered and we were told to come back in a month.

Poor kid, she can hardly drive or read! Because of the vertigo, her eyes won’t “track” without vibrating. A very strange thing to watch. How was she going to manage college until these symptoms got better??

Walking away, we decided to try and find any eye doctor available on short notice to see if they could offer some help or advice for reading. An optometrist in town had a slot open if we could hurry. After a fairly quick assessment, he showed great concern and asked if we would mind having a “field test” run. 

Bottom line we were told she is half-blind in both eyes (!), seeing only the outer portion of what’s viewed (imagine holding a small disc between your eyes!!!). She had NO idea, as her brain had been compensating by making up the rest of the lost picture.

Now we wait (over the holiday weekend) for Friday afternoon’s MRI to be read and then see what a neurologist has to say as to why… So many questions. Yet God is steady -remaining the same: strong, faithful, loving, listening, working for the good of those who love Him.

“My Lord, Who holds the answers, show us the way forward. Use this too…”

ForGlorySake! –Anna 

  

 Sarah & roommate Rachel ❤️ 

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Stepping Out

I did something yesterday I’ve never done before. I joined in a craft show for a worthy cause. I like trying something new be it food or adventure… just nothing too high (sky-diving isn’t on my list)!  This time, however, I was alone and had no idea what I was doing (procedure, decorum etc..) I just gathered stuff I like to make and showed up. It was a $25 investment to sit at a table and sell (9am-6pm). I was so incredibly nervous about my hodge-podge of crafty stuff. I’d rather give things away than see them “judged” for monetary value. I had no idea what to even charge!

The room was large and (major gulp) everyone there was organized and professionally decked out. My table had no covering or display boxes stacked. Clearly these women had done this before. I chose 3 categories to lay on the table (jewelry sets I make, personalized house paintings I create to raise money for Hope Unlimited Ministries and my good ‘ol Tee Shirt Quilts).  I smiled, but people walked all the way around, as in avoidance of, my table. This was not working out well.

I got up and decided to meet all the other vendors. Smart and focused these ladies had pretty amazing businesses going. It was fun to visit and listen to each one. I finally returned to my forlorn table and proceeded to cut out tee shirts, one by one for the next quilt order. At least my time would not be waisted. Then it dawned on me that if shoppers wouldn’t come to me, I would just go to them. I gathered my stack of business cards and proceeded to meet everyone in the room. I kept the focus on my Tee Shirt Quilts and was simply overwhelmed by the response!

After 30 mins I had given out every business card I brought and already had 3 people ready to drop off tee shirts the next week. A great meet-up place for said drop-off is our Law Firm (I’m back working everyday), so a few cards went out for Will & Estate needs as well. That morning I had asked God to go with me and help me and was encouraged by the verse: Walk by faith and not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7

Cards gone, quilt squares cut out, new friends made, I packed up and headed home early. I don’t know if I’ll do this again, but it was an interesting experience. God certainly came through. I did walk by faith and He helped me to step up.

ForGlorySake! -AnnaIMG_2802

 

 

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Old Dog, New Tricks

So… our out-of-state college kid came home this summer and whipped us into shape! He’s been away studying hard, working out and returned all buff and muscular. Enthusiasm  must be contagious because he’s motivating some “older” dogs ( I won’t name names) around here to eat healthier and lift weights. Leave it to the Chemical Engineer to research and lay out the facts. I discovered I didn’t (nor have EVER) eaten enough calories to sustain my basic body functions (BMR) while providing enough to adequately fuel my exercise habits. He explained I was starving myself. This lack of “macro nutrients” was severely slowing my metabolism down. As much as 40% Yikes! David’s data was not much better. We are both in a “metabolic recovery” phase now🙂

I also learned that while aerobic exercise (like running) is good, it only elevates the metabolism for 60 minutes, while weight resistant exercises (lifting, pushing, pulling weights) elevates the old sluggish metabolism for 48 HOURS. Go weight-lifting! So, as “macro-nutrients” definitely include carbohydrates… I’m no longer cutting those like I was and I’m on to “clean eating.” See, I told you a new thing would appear.

Still -no white flour, no white sugar, we are trying for everything in its most natural form. I’m back to the old homeschool days when I was grinding our wheat (love my Whisper Mill!) to make muffins and even cookies. I use coconut oil and raw cane sugar or honey to sweeten. At the store, I saw Stevia mixed with raw sugar for baking, but haven’t tried that yet. So far so good, with passing the taste test and getting these items into the lunch bags. School started here and I’m back to work. It helps me when we are all on the same page. I love it when everyone gets on board.

So that’s the update on the health front. School is back in swing, my work responsibilities are increasing and our 20 year old, newly married son is now an EMT – pretty cool. I pray for God to use us daily and that we will all stay strong and healthy to be useful in whatever He calls us to do! Thank you research-kid, may this help others looking for a few new tricks.

Here’s a link to discover your Macro needs: http://www.iifym.com/iifym-calculator/

ForGlorySake! Anna

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Figs from our tree…

 

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Wonderful Season of Life

Raising adult children is so… different. Different from when they were little- that’s for sure! With our kids 14-25, the people that come through our house are independent thinkers and doers! They are not the little children that once needed us to tell them what to do. They have thoughts, plans, hopes and dreams that belong to them alone.

I like hearing what’s been going on (developing) in their minds; all the opinions being formed. At times I have cringed -at other times I’ve melted. They’re learning to think for themselves. They are becoming their own unique people.

Not everything has gone according to “plan”… very little actually. They have differed from us on likes and dislikes, music, dress, schedules and sometimes hot topics like religion and politics. But it’s OK! David and  I have wanted God (especially) to be their own personal God and not just some tradition they learned from us.

It’s scary to let kids go and become. It’s scary sometimes to see them experiment and test ideas. It can be difficult to listen with mutual respect (!) to their “opinions of the month.” We have had great discussions with our kids that sometimes ended with agreeing only that we love each other and that loving others should be our #1 goal.

My favorite thing is that they call us out on our stuff. They’re watching, weighing, deciding… and it helps us be honest. We as parents are  pushed to re-evaluate. I love them more for seeing another side of an issue. I admire their heart that’s developing.

If you’re surrounded by little ones, you need to know life wiIl open up Big and wonderfully through the eyes of your children. It’s an amazing adventure I wouldn’t trade for anything. It will challenge all of your diplomatic skills, but it is a wonderful season of life!!!

ForGlorySake! -Anna



A few of the kiddos we love….

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