So to update (since March 14) on Sarah… she keeps on! Keeps on getting up to go work even with intermittent headaches and dizziness. Keeps on taking the medications prescribed and keeps on hoping for relief. Any change seems positive.
Rounds of antbiotics are breaking up the embedded borrelia bacteria in her body. Toxins (cytokines) release and her system struggles to fight the inflammatory response. Weird reactions take place: body tremors that last for hours, headaches that come and go, sharp kidney pain, sleeplessness and the ever-present dizziness.
We’ve read mixed reviews on how long this will continue. Generally agreed upon is that “treatments cause temporary worsening of symptoms.” Words like change and fight and temporary hold hope.
Recently Sarah was able to eat all kinds of fruit she’s been mysteriously allergic to (lips/tongue swelling) since 2015! Her double-vision cleared in the same 24 hours! Each healing is a gift from God and we gladly give Him all the Glory.
What a ride, what a crazy, crazy ride this has been. Thank you again for all the prayers ❤️❤️❤️
Precious bundles handed to me in pink blankets, cute outfits and hair bows, tea parties, dolls and dress up. That’s what I think of. Tantrums, drama, fussing and whining mixes in here and there, but even so the memories are sweet and I laugh to myself.
With 2 teenager daughters and a 3rd approaching 23, I feel the time moving so fast. “Before you know it they’re gone,” my mom used to say. Somehow I’ve managed to keep ours around a tad longer 😉 Still, it does whoosh by.
Moments are precious and secrets even more! How blessed I feel when one confides in me… like a friend. Oh, my heart! “Lord (I then pray), help me be true and safe with their confessions. Help me remember details and be remembered with wise words of guidance and encouragement. How I pray they find their worth in only You!”
Daughters are treasures, pearls of great price… and what a cost! Ha May I count their true value and pass it on in godly counsel. “Bless them, keep them, fill them with the Joy of Your salvation.”
“With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.”Isaiah 12:3 esv
“For you are a people holy to the Lord your God. The Lord your God has chosen you to be a people forHis treasured possession, out of all the peoples who are on the face of the earth.” Deuteronomy 7:6 ESV
I am treasured. I am chosen. I belong.
How wonderful to wake up and realize before my feet hit the ground: God is good and He created good things for me to walk in today. He means good for me and He means for me to share His goodness with others.
No matter the place (at home, at a hospital, traveling…) God is there. He sees me and He knows all about me. He watches while I sleep and waits for me to wake and come to Him. He promises something from His hand, each morning, treasures and wisdom if I will only seek it out.
Nothing masters me when I stay at His feet, with my full attention on Him & His Word. It is before God alone that I stand or fall and I stand because He holds me up! (Romans 14:4) He wants me to succeed in my quest to know Him and discover what pleases Him.
I have been adopted as I am, but He did not leave me that way! He has enormous plans. He sees a hopeful future of total maturity… just as I do for my children. Yes, we come as we are… but we never stay that way. We grow in Christ. Leaving our old patterns behind and stretching toward Christ-like-ness.
I am a new creation, free from the bonds of sin. I am no longer labeled by my sin, my identity is in Christ. As my wise friend Audrey says, ” I don’t need to lay my sin before God and ask Him to bless it.” I have been crucified with Christ and it is not longer I that lives, but Christ lives in me!
This is who I am. A better than imagined “me” -in Christ. His treasured possession ❤️
No not because of the diet. Although I will say eating less takes effort …and more water and gum! Several times I’ve wandered to the pantry to see what’s there, stared blankly and realized whatever I thought I was looking for wouldn’t satisfy. I wasn’t even actually hungry, I just needed activity!
Sometimes I’m not sure what I need from God either, I just know I NEED (!) and He fills in the blank. He is there to meet all my needs, known and unknown. When my spirit is disturbed (for instance) for my kids and I don’t know how to pray -He does.
When I cry out He hears me and shows me promises in both the old and New Testament – promises for “His children” -descendants, grafted in, given the promises of Abraham as adopted children through His Son, because ALL the promises of God find their YES in Jesus! 2 Cor. 1:20
Hunger- true hunger leads us to the One: Who is, Who was, and Who is to come.
Hunger for God, hunger for His Word, hunger for His promises and you will be filled! He will break down the strongholds before you, He will give you treasures that come specifically in darkness, spiritual riches hidden in secret places -so that you, dear one, may know that HE IS GOD! Gum and water can be added … or not 😉
“I will go before you and level the exalted places, I will break in pieces the doors of bronze and cut through the bars of iron, I will give you the treasures of darkness and the riches stored in secret places, that you may know that it is I, the Lord, the God of Israel, who call you by your name.” Isaiah 45:2-3
That 4 letter word… the thought of it makes me grumpy. But there is no more avoiding the fact that it’s time. No matter how healthy I eat, how carefully I choose, if I don’t watch how many calorices I take in – the scale creeps – in an unfriendly direction.
5lbs I hardly notice but 10?? My clothes are tight. Groan. The dreaded moment comes. (New clothes? No) The scale. Everyone has fears/phobias, mine lies with that small square platform and dates back to years as a dancer suffering through “weigh-ins.” If you don’t know this trauma, imagine weighing publicly in front of your neighbors 😜 with added critiques.
On. Numbers noted. Done. No pouting. There will be no drama over cheese (I do love cheese). I will not to cry about less Lilly’s chocolate. I will be measured and patient and not rush the process. No pills or potions, just a cut down on calories and good ol workouts.
“My Plate” is my favorite app for tracking what goes in and what comes off. It also tracks activities like walking and gives credit for cleaning the house and mowing! It helps me see when I need more protein and less carbs and encourages me to eat if I’ve gotten busy.
All is well, the sun is still shining and I will survive…. even at 50.
God is my strength ❤️
Egg white/flax meal pancake with drizzled agave ❤️
“When my anxious thoughts multiply within me, Your comforts delight me.”Psalm 94:19
Oh how I stress… worry, fret and think on things round and round. Seems some parts of the month are easy and joyful while others are harder and way more exhausting (Hormones?)
God IS wonderful, Jesus IS awesome, and life IS full of His grace & redemption… but hard situations present and don’t resolve quickly. Sin brings pain to everyone and our enemy comes to kill and destroy. How do we hold to JOY in the waiting?
ASK FOR IT! Ask now, ask tomorrow and continually seek things to think on that are: true, honorable, worthy of respect, right, confirmed by God’s word, pure, wholesome, lovely, bringing peace, admirable, of good repute; anything of excellence, anything worthy of praise!!! (Philippians 4:8) It takes effort.
We must continually think on such things [center our minds on them, implant them in our hearts]. There goes my Netflix playlist. Repetition breeds habit. What you feed will grow! Setting our mind above will lesson the heaviness of this earth. It does not change it, but there is hope to be found and areas to move forward in today.
God will show you the way as HE does me, when you ask. We must seek. We must purpose to focus on the wholesome IF we truly want to find JOY. His comforts delight.
God is bigger than our anxiety.
“I will give you the treasures of darkness and the hoards in secret places, that you may know that it is I, the Lord, the God of Israel, who call you by your name.” Isaiah 45:3 ESV
After 15 months, countless doctors (literally we do not have a list of all the urgent care folks) and medical bills, bills, bills… our daughter FINALLY received a diagnosis of advanced Lyme Disease and Mono.
15 months! The list of symptoms is daunting, but the treatment is very doable- heavy antibiotics. We are praying for good response (!) and no residual damage after such a long time of rampant bacteria from this teeny tiny deer-tick bite. Mercy.
Why so hard to diagnose? Why so long? Why so many specialists that never checked for an autoimmune desease? We have all been so distracted by her eye-sight disturbances and vertigo… and she never showed any “rash” (a typical indicator).
Btw The Mayo Clinic in November of 2016 just linked eyesight issues with Lyme Disease.
So is God good? Does He have a plan for our daughter’s good? Can I trust Him with what’s ahead?
For me, I can because of all He has done in the past. I have seen Him carry us through darkness before and from that darkness give us treasure. I choose to trust Him again, today, with this. He is my Hope, my Strength, my Life.
“I thank You, Father for even this and for caring for our child. You are the the LORD, the One Who calls me by name.”