In Him

all things are made new
all things are possible
all things reach completion
all things have purpose
all things bring blessing
all things come together
all things work for good
all things hold together
all things are restored
all things are under His power
all things are for Him
all things are searched by the Spirit
all things are judged by us
In all these things we are more than conquers

…all things were created for His Glory and good pleasure! In Him (anna)

I was reminded today that there have been some really dark and desperate moments over our past holidays… times when the future looked bleak. It was so hard for me to see any light, so hard to imagine change. But I could not let myself lose hope. Without Hope there is total darkness. And God always offers light.

I had to trust Him, and believe me my ability was tiny. But God… does not EVER despise small beginnings and He always searches to and fro for those who desire to seek after Him and He promises to grow what we entrust to Him.

I can not hold back the tears when I look around and see my husband alive, a sober son, my children happy, food on the table and a place to call home. Even a car in the garage! These are things beyond my wildest dreams – at least they are when I look back.

I don’t know where this holiday season finds you. I don’t know what you’re facing and I don’t presume to say how it will end. All I know is that He hears you and He loves you and there is Hope -in Him.

 

ForGlorySake! – Anna

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No Panic-mode

I’m just finishing up another terrific 7 week Bible study session with my girlfriends. The story of Gideon has taught us so much about God using the weak not just inspite of their weaknesses… but because of them!

God meets us in that Gap between what we can get done and what’s impossible to achieve. My weariness only shows that “I can’t” –alone. His strength is what I need. 

In the midst of this season of health, financial and insurance challenges, my trust-factor has again been triggered. These are all opportunities to put my hope in God, another chance to pray the prayer that never fails, “Your Will be done.” But, bless my soul, it’s a daily choice!

Seems to be my life-long lesson to learn: Trust and wait… No matter the year or circumstance. Yet there is peace in this place. Contentment. I can let it go (with His help) and leave all my concerns at His feet. Definitely freeing.

There is no panic-mode. God will never fail me. 
FirGlorySake-Anna 

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Growing Weary…

Keep going… Do the next good thing… Don’t grow weary…

But have you ever had a day- A week- A year- that just takes all you’ve got and then some? There are seasons when sleep just isn’t enough and the coffee pot needs an auto-refill button. My lists grow longer because I can’t seem to get it all done in one day, and heaven help anyone near me with an attitude. There’s just nothing left for that!

I love Mandisa’s song “Press On.” She says just what I’ve felt,

when I’ve had all I can take, losing my grip, I start to slip away… (But because God is using all this for my good)-

“what do I fear God, You are with me, guiding my steps today! Through the mountains, valleys, sun and rain, LORD lead the way, lead the way! I WILL press on”

How I need that encouragement… daily. The medical saga continues here with more detox, more blood work, and more tests…. no new answers however. Sigh. Sarah is having mild eye-sight improvement, lessening allergic reactions to fruit and most days, less nausea (that’s something).

“So let’s not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit. ” ‭‭Galatians‬ ‭6:9 ‭MSG

“GOD ’s there, listening for all who pray, for all who pray and mean it. He does what’s best for those who fear him— hears them call out, and saves them.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭145:18-19‬ ‭MSG‬‬

Thank you, Lord, for the encouragement and nice weather🙂

ForGlorySake! –Anna

 

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Perfect Endurance

“… and let endurance have its perfect work, so that you will be whole and complete lacking nothing.” James 1:2

Trials… what a pain, the up side however is that they bring about a perfect work – the work of completing me. God in His great and mighty faithfulness promises never to leave me as I am, but to complete me before He returns or calls me home.

 Pretty cool to know I’m on a journey toward Him and how comforting to be assured every insident is helping me toward a goal. Whether monstrous, or mild,  each event plays into an equation for perfection.

We struggle on with our daughter’s illness, watching her be faithful with the detox regiment and visits to doctors as they come up. She’s pretty tired of giving blood. For now it has become the “new normal” as we wait for healthy results. Endurance hopefully bringing wholeness :))

ForGlorySake! –Anna 

 

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Sure and Certain

With all of the questions and mystery still swirling around our daughter’s health, I’ve been searching for anything to tie to.
We’ve even directed to a new MD (specialized ENT who looks at all symptoms as a whole). Finally someone is addressing the sudden food allergies, repeat sinusitis along with the vertigo and eyesight “disruption”). Lots of blood work and another scan will hopefully help to unravel more of the puzzle.

Our darling girl has been put through the wringer! Until specifics are discovered, she’s been put on a uniquely tailored regiment to detox her body and build up her immune system. Grueling.  I’m so impressed by her commitment to try.

So what is sure and certain? God. Today, tomorrow, yesterday, He remains the same. He has promised to direct our path. He has promised to provide for our needs. He continues to choose us, call us, persue us.

“If we are unfaithful, God remains faithful, for He cannot deny who He is.” 2 Timothy‬ ‭2:13‬ ‭

I can tie to hope. I can tie to faith… in a faithful God.

“Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we have not seen.” Hebrews 11:1

ForGlorySake!- Anna 

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What God Uses…

Appointments have come and gone and we have met a lot of medical professionals in the last few weeks- including a Neuro-ophthalmologist! Our daughter has officially withdrawn from college on “medical leave” in light of her on-going symptoms (dizziness/blurred vision). Few answers have been given. We actually know more about what’s NOT going on than what IS. MRI readings show there is no growth (tumor) on the pituitary gland, that might put pressure on her optic nerve, however hormones being secreted remain high and the pituitary gland is slightly enlarged.

It’s hard to know what to do next. We have been presented with options from more testing (a spinal tap!), to regimented physical therapy for dizziness. Oh well, it’s only $$$- right?? HELP. The eyesight remains a mystery. I keep asking God, “what’s the plan here?” An Endocrinologist seems to follow as next on the list of Doctors. There is a wait… of course.

I see new resolve in Sarah’s eyes, a deeper understanding that doctors are at the mercy of test results and experience. That too many times there is no quick fix. That there are many, many sick people in our world waiting for appointments and answers just like we are. That sometimes we HAVE to stop doing regular life to take care of our health! That God can and will use EVERYTHING for a purpose, we may just have to wait and see “for what.”

“We humans keep brainstorming options and plans, but GOD’s purpose prevails.” Proverbs 21

“For we are God’s masterpiece. Created anew in Christ Jesus, so that we can do the good things He planned for us to do, long ago.”  Ephesians 2:10 

Lead on, LORD.

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Sarah & Elizabeth

 

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What if?…

Today is a day we have both dreaded and waited for. Today those particular tests the neurologist requested will finally be run. It seems like it’s taken forever. It has only been a week. To a college student however, days mean grades, grades equal GPA, GPA stands for staying in school… graduation… future jobs. This weekend was an emotional rollercoaster of “what ifs.”

We don’t know anything more. We are still waiting and speculating. We do know that nothing further can happen without these views of our daughter’s brain. We’ve been forewarned that the scans are complicated and may take about a week to review. Our appointment to actually hear results is NEXT Tuesday. Sigh. Meanwhile, so many questions swirl. Her college is advising a “medical emergency withdrawal.” Sarah would rather have her fingernails extracted. It’s hard to watch her grapple with all of this – after she’s worked so hard.

Her medicine makes her sleepy, curbing the nausea and for that I am thankful. Hopefully she will sleep through the long, long test in the tight tube today. Hopefully someone will see something helpful and get the ball rolling a tad faster. Hopefully there will clear answers as to her vision loss and ideas to correct. Hope is what I hold to.

My Hope is found in God and His faithfulness. As always, He sees what I don’t. He has an end goal in mind. I know without a doubt that He is working behind the scenes. He is answering my prayers (always) for my children to follow hard after Him. He cares 1st and foremost for their hearts… and I’m more than ok with that!

Let Your will be done, LORD. We trust You with all the What ifs.

ForGlorySake! -Anna

 

img_4753“Yes indeed -God is my salvation. I trust, I won’t be afraid. GOD -yes GOD! -is my strength and song, best of all, my salvation!” Isaiah 12:2 MSG

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