50 years old and still the same lesson… “Will you trust Me?” I wonder some days if it will ever come simply – easily? At least now, I recognize the struggle before it overwhelmes.
Each week (oftentimes daily) there comes across my path something I can not fix, can not resolve or can not pray to the end of. Still, I do pray …and seek His promises of guidance …and lay the concern down again and again…
Then the waiting and hoping mixed with bouts of frustration bring me back to the same questions: Who’s in charge? (God). Is He listening? (Yes, always). Will I trust Him? (Of course…. but, but, but…).
Intellectually – I know He is sovereign. Willfully – I’ve decided to follow Him. Still emotionally – I wrestle with the how’s and the when’s. And do you know what I have discovered? It’s in the wrestling that I’ve grown stronger! It’s in that battle of faith, verses what I see that my spiritual muscles have matured!
The struggle is like work out and even this God uses to bring me to completion in Christ Jesus.
“Thank You, LORD, for using all things, even my wrestling with total trust and peace in You -for my good. Thank You for never losing focus of Your goal to complete me in Christ! Never losing hope that my failings can be matured -all for Your Glory! What a wondrous God You are!”
ForGlorySake! – Anna