Trust, Trust, Trust

50 years old and still the same lesson… “Will you trust Me?” I wonder some days if it will ever come simply – easily? At least now, I recognize the struggle before it overwhelmes. 

Each week (oftentimes daily) there comes across my path something I can not fix, can not resolve or can not pray to the end of. Still, I do pray …and seek His promises of guidance …and lay the concern down again and again…

And again.

Then the waiting and hoping mixed with bouts of frustration bring me back to the same questions: Who’s in charge? (God). Is He listening? (Yes, always). Will I trust Him? (Of course…. but, but, but…).

Intellectually – I know He is sovereignWillfully – I’ve decided to follow Him. Still emotionally – I wrestle with the how’s and the when’s. And do you know what I have discovered? It’s in the wrestling that I’ve grown stronger! It’s in that battle of faith, verses what I see that my spiritual muscles have matured! 

The struggle is like work out and even this God uses to bring me to completion in Christ Jesus.

“Thank You, LORD, for using all things, even my wrestling with total trust and peace in You -for my good. Thank You for never losing focus of Your goal to complete me in Christ! Never losing hope that my failings can be matured -all for Your Glory! What a wondrous God You are!”

ForGlorySake! – Anna


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Grace like an Ocean…

Deeper than I can measure…

Farther than I can see to its end…

Powerful, unpredictable, all-consuming, overwhelming…

This is God’s Grace. How far does it reach? To what lengthd will it go? Just what will it cover? … and, How many times? I’ve been searching and seeking through scripture and keep coming to the same question: “What did Christ’s death accomplish?”

Everything! It covered All sin. That is- everyone’s for all time

I can not find a limitation spoken anywhere. I can not reach another conclusion: Jesus’ death covered it all. And this covering has been offered, a total gift to anyone who wants it. 

Grace. So amazing, so overwhelming, so complete in every way. Again and again. 

But for any who would attempt to “use” it? “Cheapen” it? Could such a sacrifice even be cheapened? No way! Impossible! What God planned and achieved is Eternal -beyond anything a mere  human could try to “soften.” This IS the Good News!

It is Grace- extended to me (God’s creation) by an all-powerful, all-loving Father (my Creator)! It is bigger than the sea itself.. 

“…but You are a God of forgiveness, gracious and merciful and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in loving kindness, for You did not forsake them.” Nehemiah 9:17b

How true. He sent Jesus❤️ 

 

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Beautiful Ugly

What is true beauty? Flawless perfection? Honest truth? Beloved memories? The Bible reminds us  skin-deep-good-looks are short lived,  but fear of God is forever gorgeous. The older I get, the more I’m banking on that! 

My husband showed up at a time in my life when I was literally plagued with “the uglies.” He was completely baffled by my desperate grasps at a sickly beauty. His admiration of God’s handiwork in me, made me ashamed of my vain disregard. 

Over the years he further opened my eyes to the appreciation of scars, tiny wrinkles, and those few grey hairs. They are “God-markers” of intervention, provision, even reward. They show we were indeed created in our Savior, and have been about the good works God long ago planned for us. Eph.2:10

On one of my morning excursions, I passed a windy, wet, wild side of the island we visit. The cliffs I found had strange holes and shapes telling a story of years of wear and tear. 

Savage beauty, much like water and wind against a rock. Every body becomes worn and buffeted… yet the results are beautiful. Each little line tells a story, especially around the eyes where we’ve laughed and cried.

This is true beauty.

ForGlorySake! –Anna

  

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Seed Sprouting

For me, vacation and running go hand in hand. I love being outside and having a look around. Walking is nice but tends to take a looong time. Thus, my lack of patience produces jogging. 

I’m always amazed how repetition of anything brings increased ease. Before long I’m going farther… faster. Good habits like eating well, reading (especially the Bible), writing, painting… increase in appetite as I feed them. Neglected, they shrivel.

My husband and I consider our relationship close. For 28 years we’ve used the word “connected.” Yet, when we get away alone and focus one on one, old sparks ignite. It’s always a marvel the rejuvenation God brings. Ah, the wonders of sewing and reeping.

It all reminds me to live -with purpose. Think before I speak, or do. Seek God moment by moment for direction on where to use my energies. Because what I feed today will grow tomorrow. And, whatever I’m growing will be weighed and judged by God someday.

What are you sprouting?

ForGlorySake! –Anna

  

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Promises!

When I bump into mothers of prodigal children my heart aches. I get it, it hurts. You are not alone. All through the scriptures God shows His heart in the matter and gives us promises to speak out loud and hold on to ❤️ They are like sweet fruit for the taking:

“If you belong to Christ then you are Abraham’s seed and heirs according to the promise.” Galatians 3:29 NIV
(In Christ we are heirs!)

“For all the promises of God find their YES in Jesus. That is why it is through Him we utter AMEN to God for His Glory.” 2 Corinthians 1:20

(All of the promises)

“For thus says the LORD: for I will contend with those who contend with you, and I will save your children.” Isaiah 49:25 ESV

(God will fight for them)



“What You bless, O LORD stays blessed forever!” 1 Chronicles 17:27

(Bless them in Jesus’ name!)

“Those who wait for the LORD shall not be put to shame” Isaiah 49:23

(We are never foolish to wait on God.)

“All of us must die eventually… but God does not just sweep life away, instead HE devises ways to bring us back when we have been separated from Him.” 2 Samuel 14:14 ESV

(Ask how to help in His plan) 

“I will round up your children, I want them back (whom I created for My Glory) yes, personally formed and made each one.” Isaiah 43:5-7 AMP

(God wants this more than you do)

“Jesus said….Every person the Father gives me eventually comes running to me. And once that person is with me, I hold on and don’t let go.” ‭John‬ ‭6:37 ‭MSG‬‬ 

(Faith is hoping for what’s not seen)

“Then the LORD said to me, “… I am [actively] watching over My Word to fulfill it.”” JEREMIAH‬ ‭1:12‬ ‭AMP‬‬

(God’s Word will not return void)

‭‭“obtaining as the outcome of your faith the salvation of souls.” 1 Peter‬ ‭1:9‬ ‭NASB‬‬

(Our faith makes a difference)

“Abraham never wavered in believing God’s promise. In fact, his faith grew stronger, and in this he brought glory to God. He was fully convinced that God is able to do whatever HE promises.” Romans‬ ‭4:20-21‬ ‭NLT‬‬

(Hope)

‭‭“And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them.” Romans‬ ‭8:28‬ ‭NLT‬‬

(HE will use this in your life- don’t lose heart)

ForGlorySake! –Anna

   

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The Lyme Disease Roller Coaster

So to update (since March 14) on Sarah… she keeps on! Keeps on getting up to go work even with intermittent headaches and dizziness. Keeps on taking the medications prescribed and keeps on hoping for relief. Any change seems positive.

Rounds of antbiotics are breaking up the embedded borrelia bacteria in her body. Toxins (cytokines) release and her system struggles to fight the inflammatory response. Weird reactions take place: body tremors that last for hours, headaches that come and go, sharp kidney pain, sleeplessness and the ever-present dizziness.

We’ve read mixed reviews on how long this will continue. Generally agreed upon is that “treatments cause temporary worsening of symptoms.” Words like change and fight and temporary hold hope.

Recently Sarah was able to eat all kinds of fruit she’s been mysteriously allergic to (lips/tongue swelling) since 2015! Her double-vision cleared in the same 24 hours! Each healing is a gift from God and we gladly give Him all the Glory.

What a ride, what a crazy, crazy ride this has been. Thank you again for all the prayers ❤️❤️❤️

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Daughters

Precious bundles handed to me in pink blankets, cute outfits and hair bows, tea parties, dolls and dress up. That’s what I think of. Tantrums, drama, fussing and whining mixes in here and there, but even so the memories are sweet and I laugh to myself.

With 2 teenager daughters and a 3rd approaching 23, I feel the time moving so fast. “Before you know it they’re gone,” my mom used to say. Somehow I’ve managed to keep ours around a tad longer 😉 Still, it does whoosh by.

Moments are precious and secrets even more! How blessed I feel when one confides in me… like a friend. Oh, my heart! “Lord (I then pray), help me be true and safe with their confessions. Help me remember details and be remembered with wise words of guidance and encouragement. How I pray they find their worth in only You!”

Daughters are treasures, pearls of great price… and what a cost! May I count their true value and pass it on in godly counsel. “Bless them, keep them, fill them with the Joy of Your salvation.”

“With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation.”‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭12:3‬ ‭esv

ForGlorySake! –Anna

 

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